I hope things don't come in threes
We've had a bit of bad luck recently in the NSY family and someone said I should write things down to clear my head. I thought here is as good as any. I'm not looking for sympathy or really anybody to read until the end. Where to start? Here goes...
At the beginning of June my mum died suddenly. She started off with a bit of a chest infection in mid/late May. She said it was just a bit of a chesty cold and didn't want me to fetch laddo round that weekend. The following Tuesday she had some chest pains during the night. She had angina and live in a wardened flat. She never alerted the warden. Saying she "didn't want to cause a fuss". She took her medicine and tught it took a bit longer than normal for the pain to go. She rang the doctors in the following morning who said she had had a heart attack not just an angina attack. She went for some blood tests and chest x-rays over the next week or so. On 25th May she got the all clear from the doctors. Great!. On Friday 28th She rang the doctors with some suffering some more pains. She went into hospital that afternoon. her blood pressure was high, heart rate 155 and was on 80% oxygen. When I left that night she was in ICU with 55% oxygen and a heart rate of 120bpm. Great she was getting better. She deteriated rapidly over the weekend though. Basically when I left her on the Moday night she was in an induced sleep on loads of medication and her kidneys were failing. I got the call to go into hospital on the Tuesday 1st June. I'm the only child so the following decision was down to me alone. It turned out one of her heart valves was restricted so they could operate and repair it. The problem was the specialist said she would not survive the op'. If I insisted she would do it though. She was not reacting to the medicine which was at max' dosage ither. My choices were do I send her for an op which she will not get through, Tell the doctors to turn of the breathing equipment so that nature could take it's course there and then, or leave things as they were to let her continue on indefinately. I chose to turn the machines off. It took half an hour for things to work their course. She heavily sedated so didn't feel anything. I still don't know if I made the right choice? She was 73 at the time and lived for her 3 year old grandson and is going to miss out on so much.
My wife had a 'procedure' yesterday to after having her third miscarriage last week. the last few days have been a bit rubbish for both of us. More so for her obviously. It is very upsetting though to see how she is, and know that there is nothing you can do to alter the situation. This is made worse by the fact that in 2003 she was told she couldn't have children. Then fell pregnant only to have her first miscarriage. In 2005 she had another miscarriage. In 2006 she fell pregnant again and we had a little laddy. He was born 5 weeks premature and had a rough first 12 months in and out of hospital. My wife had post natal depression due to the initial stress. The birth was also the day after my dads funeral. That was one emotional rollercoaster weekend for me.
Anyway that's it. I just hope there isn't another incident along these lines waiting for me to make the trio.
If anybody has gone through or is going through the above I feel for you. As I said before this is not a cry for sympathy just hopefully a way of clearing my head.
Andrew if it's a bit heavy going and needs editing/deleting then fine.